Brightest

WELL, YOU SHOULD SEE POLYTHENE PAM.

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Title : im selfish im wrong im flawed im tired

Oh and I fell in love with The XX all over again.

you mean that much to me and its hard to show/

gets hectic inside of me when you go.

steady walking but bound to trip/

should release but just tighten my grip.

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Title : beachy business

Tiny/mini/primary school sailors are looked so adorable! Even their sails were half
size of what the Adiv kids had.

I came down today because I figured that it'll be my last chance to see him sail for
Inter-schools. Felt out of place, looked out of place;
"You're not a sailor right? Supporting?"

I can only hope that I wasn't annoying.
"Where's justin? Those are 420s ah?"
"Omg.. So many boats!"
"I cannot see anything..."
"What's OCS?? What's DNF?"
"Where's the finishing line?"
"HAR?! FINISH ALREADY?!"

When they finally came back to shore after four long races, cass shouted for me to
help out. By then I already figured that I had zero knowledge about the sport so I
didn't move, tried to look busy... Then I walked into one of those metal wheel thingy
they used for the boats.

Ah, netball is all I know, really. STILL PROUDA IT THOUGH!

This little SJI sailor walked towards his dad to say hi and stared at his sister, who
was burying her head in a book and said "what are you doing here". Next, Jus walked
towards me with his chickenbackside hair, cool shades and a bleeding cut..
"Why you come?" I was too drowning myself in Diary of a Wimpy Kid.
Funny.

After they were done protesting against eachother, (sailing is so damn complicated) I
felt more appreciated so :) :) :) real glad I came down today.

Netball season starts tomorrow, I'll probably not sleep tonight. I want us to start the season off well, even if we don't win, we can still put up a good fight.
Some teams start a season off knowing that they will play for the finals;
"Must support us at finals OKAY!"
Some teams start a season off with dreams, goals, and fear.
"Top 4, but take one step at a time"
Some teams just have to believe.
"Believe that you are doing what you are best at"

Its true.
We didn't give up because we thought about why we've been holding on for so long.
We're not going out there to kick any asses,
We just wanna play our game.

I just wanna play my game.

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Title : & everytime i wonder whats real you make me feel

"A grey hare lives here with his honey bunny"

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Title : today is monday,

& after all that drama in school last week,
I guess its really safe to say that this school sucks because its ruled by a particular department.

Forget that I actually said that it was a cool school to be in..

Six more months I can do this!

Stay strong huang! :)

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Title : & when it rains

Will you always find an escape
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything

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Title : i like to think at least things cant get any worse!

And you can't save me now,
I'm in the grip of a hurricane
I'm gonna blow myself away.

I really wanna know how I'd feel next time when I look back and think about my two
years in VJ. I know I can still control that now by trying to make it better but I
I'm not sure if its really worth the while.

I mean, its a cool school, really. We have full days of from school and people around
are pretty lovely though having some butt-faces around is inevitable, teachers and the student body alike. Its just that, I haven't really been enjoying myself because I've been trying so hard to stay afloat, to keep up.

I never used to curse, but it has really come to a point where I'll just tell myself to move the fuck on.

We don't ever stop being troubled don't we? Human beings are such complicated
creatures. We worry about getting full marks for a spelling test, getting to a top
Secondary school, scoring single digits for L1R5, a space in an university, getting a
stable job, enough to feed the family, more monetary issues and other random issues to come as we grow.
Why can't we just be like elephants?

I'm not saying that the education system is flawed, its just if its the competitiveness that is motivating us then something is just not right.

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Title : & the reason is you

loved yesterday,
loved today.

:)

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Title : what a day

I'm terrified.

I cheered in silence today. Congrats to the hockey girls :)
I always feel so sad watching finals at A Division, and again I feel that no one would understand how I feel.

\edit
Whoo my day just got better!!!
I just found out that stars' heart
album cannot be found in Singapore.

Hsgfdphajfhsuishdsiurfgyishfdwnbduihcd I'm like, heart broken.

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Title : what a day

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Title : excuse the sudden switch of mood,

but school was really bad today so...

LIFE'S NATURAL HIGH!!!

Lying on the bed listening to the best & only the best music
Bathtub
Lazing on the beach
Skate!
ICECREAM
Giggling
Heavy rain while sleeping...
Short notes (hee thanks nette & huang)
Hugs (thanksmaoz)
Teammies :)
Distant old friends *inserts hearts* who still mean a lot
Quiet guy-friends who do not say a thing but still somehow show that they do care
Laughing for no reason
Laughing at myself
Long conversations at night
Having someone to tell you that you're beautiful
Falling in love
Be in love

& more more so much more.

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Title : where did i go wrong, i lost a friend.

we, including myself, tend to think that no one understands, or that no one listens.
Why is it so hard for everyone to simply forgive and forget,
or appreciate the fact that people do try and understand?

Sigh,
We all only wanna hear the things we wanna hear.

From the very beginning, I tend to dwell upon a lot of issues, problems or mistakes.
just like whenever i miss a shot, i find it hard to concentrate for the next because i'll be thinking about why i missed that shot. i guess that's why i cant perform under pressure and i will never attain 100% shots in a game.
i still remember at 05 ez finals both vianne & aowci had 100% shots for the entire game! :)

with that, I'm really really sorry if I've annoyed you or anyone along the way.

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Title : wearephoenix.com!

my mom is so gonna throw both rocky & i out of the house the MOMENT the 14 years old washing machine falls apart.

i can't believe feeling fab is on a thursday!
it doesn't make any sense to me;
to feel fab on thursday then go back to school on friday.

WILD HEARTS NEVER BREAK
HAHA

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Title : howl

Be careful of the curse that falls on young lovers,

starts so soft and sweet and turns them into hunters.

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Title :

We had good trainings this week, guess that's why I'm so physically drained.

The last thing I remember was that the GPS system said bus 15 was arriving.
I HONESTLY don't remember boarding the bus as my eyes were pretty much glued to my mini
phone screen..
Well okay, I probably sub-consciously did so since I was aware that my bus
was coming.
Took it for granted that the next single deck bus would be 15, I ended
up on the highway the next second my eyes left my phone.

I had no idea where I was heading.
I had no idea which bus I was on!
To think I was just five stops away from home, ugh.

Bugis. Looks like I was on bus 48 then.
I made sure I took the right bus the next time round..
BUT IT STARTED TO POUR WHEN BUS 12 REACHED EAST COAST ROAD.
Desperate to be home, I walked in the rain and no I wasn't trying to act like some
kinda emo-kid.

My discman with florence + the machine in it accompied me throughout,
Thank you very much.
Hurhurhur.

I could have died from dreaming.
While napping I dreamt that I couldn't breathe and woke up realising that I was
holding my breath. Freaked out for a moment but it became funny after a while.. hahaha deep down I think I really DO wanna die.

GOODNIGHT :)

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Title : changing winds

Louder than sirens,
Louder than bells.
Sweeter than heaven,
& Hotter than hell.